Placenta Previa, Anyone?

I’ve been having a bit of spotting randomly throughout this pregnancy.  While it is not too much, it still worries me.  Every time I see it, I call my doc and she inevitably asks me to come in for an u/s.  She checks my cervix length, the heartbeat of the baby, and the placement of the placenta.  I went in two weeks ago and found that my placenta was dangerously close to the opening of my cervix.  Then it happened again and guess what?  I went in again.

The doc reported that the distance from my placenta to my cervical opening was but 1 cm and that it could be causing the spotting, especially if I’m exercising or straining.  Makes sense, I’ve been trying to walk a lot this week. I also noticed on the ultrasound that our baby was head banging the placenta…haha…so maybe that has something to do with it too 😉 She said to take it easy, and that in fact it is very common for the placenta to be this low, this early.  As my uterus grows, my placenta should shift upwards.  (fingers crossed!)  She reassured me that if I continue to see the amount of spotting I have been seeing, it shouldn’t be something to worry about.  (YAY!) I have my next appointment in 2 weeks, so hopefully I can be spot free til then.

For those of you that don’t know much about placenta previa, here’s a little graphic.  17146eeea69760ba266e2ac8410e7a9a

If you still have a placenta previa near your due date, you need a C-section.  It could also cause lots of bleeding in the third trimester and preterm labor.  Right now, mine is about Marginal.  So I’m going to start chanting, “Grow uterus, grow, move up placenta, move UP.”

Father’s Day/Fathers’ Day

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Now that people are wishing us a happy Father’s Day/Mother’s Day, though we are not quite parents yet, I am having conflicting feelings about these holidays.  I’m not the only one either.  (S suggested we not celebrate the day once baby arrives, that’s a whole other post)  I always thought Father’s Day, and Mother’s Day for that matter, were for honoring YOUR parents.  Showing YOUR parents that you appreciate what they’ve done for you.  And, if your parents have passed, perhaps spending some time on their memory.

Of course, when you yourself become a parent the holiday becomes a bit busier.  We haven’t been there yet, and maybe that’s why I just don’t get it.  But I assume that your child then honors you the same day you may honor your parent.  I’m not sure it’s your spouses job to thank you on Father’s Day, but I may be wrong.  Apparently I know nothing about the politics about these holidays.

I’m not sure when it became a day to wish every single person you know who is a father a “happy Father’s Day,” but I’m not sure I like it.  I think it loses the meaning of the day, and serves as a way to make those who aren’t dads who’d like to be, feel left out.  While we’re on the subject of making people feel left out/inferior…let’s talk about what our Instagram and Facebook feeds look like on these holidays.  Your feed can go one of two ways:

1) Your feed is full of pictures of your friends with their dads.  Sometimes they are cute old photos, sometimes they’re recent pictures, and other times they’re collages of all of the above.  I love these! It makes me happy to see where my friends came from, and how sweet their dad has been to them.  It really speaks to me about the meaning of these Hallmark holidays.

2) Your feed is full of your friends honoring their amazing spouses by posting a picture of their perfect families.  I hate these! I find them insensitive and self indulgent (what form of social media isn’t? I know).  I just think they’re a way to brag to the world how lucky/better/happier you are than everyone else.  Not to mention the fact that it’s not “cute family day,” it’s Father’s Day.  (As I write this I realize how bitter I sound.  I also realize that I very well may be one of these posters in the near future.  I just really really hope I am not.)

I’m sure I’ll live to regret this post, but I feel like this blog is about being honest about my thoughts and feelings.  And those are always changing, so don’t hold me to any of this a year from now.

 

Beauty Buzz: Tarte Park Avenue Princess

Everybody knows I am a lipgloss junkie.  I kicked the habit for a while, I hadn’t bought a new lipgloss in 6 months.  Then, last weekend it happened. I was browsing Sephora with no particular purpose (big mistake), and my eye caught a glimpse of a tube of nude, glittery, shiny lip gloss.

photo 2I picked it up and felt I needed to have this tube.  It even had a cute name, “Park Avenue Princess.”  I dabbed a little on my hand and thought, “Yes, I have  to have this barely there, glitter for my lips.”  Two minutes later, I was in paying for my filthy habit yet again.

I couldn’t wait to open the box and layer it on my lips.  But once I did, I was a little disappointed.  It basically looked like clear gloss with a little bit of sparkle.  I thought it was going to be a little more of a pale pink/nude color underneath the glitz. On the bright side,  I love a scented gloss and this one smells like cotton candy/marshmallows.  YUM! It’s also a little sticky, which I like (I know a lot of people don’t).  It’s not as sticky as a MAC gloss, but sticky enough to know when you need to apply more.

Here it is, freshly applied to a makeup-free face.  Don’t mind the splotchiness.

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The Last Day of the First Third

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I know we are far from done, but we have made it to the famed second trimester! I am SO excited to be here, in this moment, with a baby growing inside me.  And being in the moment is very hard for me.

If you know me at all, you know I am a hypochondriac.  It seems that finding out you’re pregnant makes you a serious HYPOCHONDRIAC.  Between the spotting, cramping, and other fun pregnancy things I’ll leave out for now, my fears have been all over the map (thank you google search).  Now that I am about to enter the 2nd trimester I’m hoping that when I feel crazy back pain again, I’ll think “I’m just growing.”  I got some good advice from a friend to not worry until I have “bright red blood gushing from parts of my body it shouldn’t.”  I’m gonna try to live by that rule for a while.

Entering this new phase in our pregnancy has also made me start thinking that this is for real.  Seeing the first ultrasound where our baby looks like a baby with feet and hands and a nose…kind of changed everything in my head.  It made me start thinking about a nursery and names and diapers.  That’s when I had to stop myself from spiraling wildly out of control in the planning department (yes, I’m neurotic).

When did you let yourself go crazy with baby planning?  I think I’m starting too soon.