Now I’m Going to Talk about My Uterus

After months of delay, I finally got to have my Saline Infusion Sonogram (SIS) done.  Conditions were not ideal, as I was still massively bleeding on day 10 of my cycle, but the NP said my lining looked thin enough that it would work anyway. I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this moment; wondering if I would have to wait another whole month due to bleeding, hoping it wouldn’t be terribly painful, praying there wouldn’t be a fibroid or polyp to have to deal with, just wanting my body to help us out a little–for once.

I was so happy S could escape the OR and join me for the procedure, cause for a minute I thought I might barf from the weight of the moment.  It turns out an SIS is not that painful.  The internet was full of SIS horror stories.  Things like, “they were the worst cramps of my life.” Then I read from one endo sufferer that if you have endo, it’s nothing.  I totally agree.  I think having monthly cramps that feel like a hot poker is searing you from your anus to your uterus is nothing compared to a little catheter entering your uterus and making it unhappy for a few minutes.  The speculum was probably the most painful part.  For those of you curious about what it feels like when the catheter is in and squirting saline into your uterus, it just feels like a moderate period cramp.  So for anyone out there getting anxious about one of these, it’s okay.

The best part of this whole procedure were the images on the screen.  Our NP was delighted that everything looked healthy and normal.  I cannot tell you how happy we were.  Yes! That means our next cycle can be the cycle that we go on to the next step.  (30 more days until the beginning of our first FET)  We decided to try the natural FET protocol which has a high cancellation rate, so I’m not getting my hopes up that it will work out on our first try.  But for now I’m gonna focus on my happy uterus.  Hooray!

uterus copy

*This is my first original artwork made on Illustrator, thank you very much.  Shout out to Christine for equipping me with all the amazing tools to make this disturbing image possible.  🙂


Counting Down To Reality

So far this Seattle adventure has been like a dream.  We live in downtown where we can walk to amazing restaurants, shopping, and cultural centers.  We really are lucky.

my hoodEven though we have a good 5 months left, I’ve always been a ‘glass half empty’ kind of girl and I’m afraid we just won’t have enough time to do all the things we want/eat all the things we want before we go.  I’m actually even more afraid that our embryos are going to stay frozen forever because my body just isn’t ever going to be ready for a baby, but let’s stay on the bright side.

We just discovered Greenlake.  It’s basically Seattle’s version of the Silverlake reservoir, but WAY prettier.  We came here on a brisk Saturday afternoon and it was packed with runners, bikers, walkers, and dogs.  I definitely want to come back with my running shoes on.

photo 2What’s more, we discovered Mighty-O donuts in Greenlake.  I read about it on one of those  “Best Donuts in the Country” lists from Daily Candy.  Since the Daily Dozen mini donut stand in the Market made the list, I knew it was worth a try.  It was one of the two donut shops in Seattle that made the list.  I am SO glad we went.  If you happen to stop by this amazing donut shop, I recommend the french toast donut.  It tastes like the airiest, fluffiest cross between coffee cake and a donut.  For days after our visit I couldn’t stop talking about it–and I don’t even like donuts!  I wish I could go back every morning for this deliciousness.

photo 3New tactic: Everytime I worry that my uterus is defunct and my ovary is about to implode, eat a donut.



Stuff Your Face: Portland

We have found a new favorite activity for when we are traveling.  Maybe it’s not all that new, it’s called eating.  Our vacations nowadays go a little like this: eat, shop, eat, shop, see a sight, eat, sleep, wake up and repeat.  Though we had been to Portland before, this was the first time I really appreciated the restaurants there.  (Maybe it’s because we were coming from Seattle as opposed to LA, but the Mexican food in Portland was stellar).

Here are the key players in our quick trip to Portland in chronological order:

Little Big Burger

122 NW 10th Ave
Portland, OR 97209

We ate here twice in our two day stay.  It was that good and cheap.  Locally sourced meats and veggie patties (how utterly Portlandia), choice of 4 fancy cheeses, and standard truffle fries.  Yes, this is my kind of fast food.  I tried the veggie patty the second go and I wasn’t a huge fan.  It just tasted like a deep fried bean patty.  Definitely go beef.

Little T Baker

1022 W Burnside
Portland, OR 97209

little t

Located in the Union Way “Mall of Hipster America,” This tiny bakeshop had some delicious looking breads.  We opted for the sweets and were not disappointed.  Did somebody say chocolate?

La Taq

1625 NE Killingsworth St
Portland, OR 97211


Why we decided to stop in here for drinks and snacks before a 4 course meal is beyond me.  But we did, and it was amazing.  Maybe it’s because we ordered nachos and then the queso with freshly made chips, but this place won me over.  If you grew up like me and had queso and salsa cooking in a crockpot at every bbq, you will be SO happy here. It’s a really fun ambience and the drinks are pretty good too, though I would stay away from the carrot margarita if I had to do it again.


1752 SE Hawthorne Blvd
Portland, OR 97214



You know how when you go to a super fancy place with wine pairings and fancy ingredients you’ve never heard of, you feel self conscious and judged by all the snooty servers?  This place is NOT like that.  Though they do announce each dish and sometimes it consists of chicken liver mousse, they are so friendly and helpful. Like when you order a drink not knowing what the liquor is in it and then you hate it, and then they notice and give you a new one without you having to ask.  While all the food was amazing, the dish on the right up there actually tasted like fish air/fart, but I kind of liked it.  (tip: don’t share this description with your waiter) This place was delicious and romantic, and definitely worth the splurge.

Screen Door

2337 E Burnside St
Portland, OR 97214

screen doorApparently Portland is known for its brunch.  I did not know.  It all makes sense now.  Last time we came we braved the 1.5 hour wait at Tasty n Sons, this time we waited 45 min for Screen Door.  But good golly, it was worth it!  I had abandoned chicken for a while now (for many irrational and rational reasons), but I just had to try their cathead chicken biscuit.  I basically avoided the chicken anyway and just ate the fried bits in gravy.  It was drool worthy.  I don’t understand how other places haven’t mastered the art of brunch like PDX.  This city is definitely in a league of its own when it comes to this meal that magically appears on weekends.


Weekend Getaway: Staying in Portland


Ever wanted to stay in Portland and not wanted to spend over $200 a night?  If so, check out Airbnb.  I’ve never tried it before this trip and was pleasantly surprised.  The two hotels we were debating between were going for ridiculous prices, so we decided to check out this Airbnb business and found an apartment for $95 a night!  Granted, as you check out they add a $40 cleaning fee and a $16 surcharge, but they also gave us a $25 coupon which made it worth it.

We found this gem in the Alberta neighborhood of Portland.  Alberta is the arts district and full of cute craftsman homes and hot spot restaurants according to Eater.  The apartment we chose was attached to a larger house, and was featured on Apartment Therapy so you know it’s adorable.  Our hostess had tons of sweet touches in the apartment like lucky horse shoes, vintage appliances, a bowl of violet candies and a notebook full of great restaurant recommendations.

PicMonkey Collage


We loved our stay here, it was easy and cute (two of my favorite adjectives).  I’d definitely stay here again.

Weekend Getaway: Shopping Portland

Word on the street up here in the PNW is that Portland is the place to go if you wanna buy some really cool threads tax free.  We took this rainy weekend to explore the many nooks of PDX and see what kind of treasures we could score.  We discovered that Portland is the epicenter of small boutiques of American made goods.  It was like we were in our own hipster heaven.

The first time we went to PDX we were limited to the pearl district and downtown, but this time we had a car and we found some great new neighborhoods.  (I discovered an awesome app for the iPhone: Tripit.  We had so many shops we planned to visit that we mapped them all out on the app so that we didn’t have to backtrack during our shopping extravaganza. Plus One for efficiency)

shop collage

Here’s a little list of our favorite shops in Portland:

Powell’s Books

1005 W Burnside St
Portland, OR 97209
Neighborhood: Downtown

This place is an institution.  If you ask someone about where to go in Portland, they inevitably point here.  Every time I enter this store I walk out with great books at cheap prices.  Who cares if they’ve been gently loved before?


1225 NW Everett St
Portland, OR 97209
Neighborhood: Pearl District

S got a nice flannel and sweater here.  I wasn’t impressed with the women’s collection, but a great stop for men.

Frances May

1013 SW Washington St
Portland, OR 97205
Neighborhoods: Southwest Portland, Downtown

We didn’t end up getting anything from here for lack of sizes, but the collection of shoes and dresses here was beautiful.

Tanner Goods

1308 W Burnside
Portland, OR 97209
Neighborhood: Downtown

This was one of MANY stores we came across that S had been stalking online.  It was also one of many stores that exudes rugged manliness.  Portland IS the center of lumberjack chic.

Lizard Lounge

1323 NW Irving St
Portland, OR 97209
Neighborhood: Pearl District

I LOVED this store.  It was really big compared to the other shops and had an amazing selection of boots.  They carry a ton of Hudson shoes which I have only seen online and in England.

Zelda’s Shoe Bar

633 NW 23rd Ave
Portland, OR 97210
Neighborhoods: Alphabet District, Northwest

My goal was to get a pair of booties from Portland.  After going to countless shoe shops, I finally found the boots I wanted, in my size, on clearance, at this store.  Kind of a small selection, and women’s only, but I found what I wanted.

This list could go on forever, but I’ll stop here.  There were tons of other shops that smelled like cedar and pine when you walked in, with tables covered in leather and copper goods, and backpacks and flannel hanging from the walls.  I enjoyed every one of them, but these were definitely my favorites.

*We came on the perfect weekend cause every store we went into was having major sales! Note to self: go at the end of a season.

I’ve Entered a Vortex

895d91db7afd64589d97c23d3af41816Yesterday I looked back to my Facebook timeline to see whether I had posted a recipe twice.  I never did find that recipe, but  I did find myself lost in  old status updates and comments that went back a few years.  It was quite amusing.  Then someone suggested looking at old emails from the hubby, so I did.  This was an even bigger time suck.  They were all so cute!  We were so funny and young.  Although, I basically complained about ailments, and made up songs about how I wished it was Friday in all of them.  S seemed super annoyed because I was basically ignoring him and just laughing out loud or saying, “Oh my gosh, we were so cute.”  “Hey, remember when you sent me this song?” “Look at this picture!” This lasted until we went to bed.

Then the morning came.  I’m not sure how it happened but I fell into the vortex of old blogs I’ve had.  When I was a teenager I had countless diaries. I’d start one and then didn’t like the tone of it and get a new one.  I have at least 2 shoeboxes full of diaries somewhere.  The same goes for my old blogs.  I started at Xanga, which seems to have erased all my content.  I moved to my first blogspot, then my second blogspot, and now I’m here.  I had to stop myself from going through all my archives and then checking out my friends’ old blogs.  I managed to escape the vortex of past neuroses after only an hour.

*Afterthought: I used to post pictures of myself and on this blog I really haven’t.  I’m wondering if I should/shouldn’t. Hmmm…

Happy New Year!

Last night we had a very “family” NYE. We spent it with families in which children outnumbered adults. It was a lot of fun to hang out with my nieces. It was especially amazing to realize that our 9 year old niece was able to have serious conversations and was practically a teen already.
Then there came the dreaded question: why don’t you have kids? Only this time it didn’t come from an adult. It came from an 8 year old and 9 year old. (The parents know better than to ask). The conversation went a little like this:
9 yo: why don’t you have babies?
Me: oh, I don’t know.
8 yo: but, aren’t you married? So why not get a kid?
Me: yea, we are married but no kid yet.
9 yo: well, maybe the right baby is coming…or maybe you’ll adopt! (Big hug)
Me: yea, the perfect baby is just waiting to find us.
I know 2014 is going to be great. I know this because I was able to keep it together throughout that conversation.
To all of you starting a new year still hoping for that miracle, I hope your perfect baby finds you soon! And to our perfect baby: we’re ready!