And Then My Soul Let Out a Deep Sigh



This print by Parada Creations on Etsy is pretty much how my soul feels right now.  It has been a long journey for us in conceiving a little miracle of our own.  After years of injections, ultrasounds, appointments, scans, surgeries, and of course tears…it seems the path we have embarked on is just about exhausted.  You’d think that I would be completely devastated by this news, but in fact, I am kind of relieved.  (I’m not saying I am not sad, cause I am. I just know it’s not the end of the road for our future miracle.)

Knowing that my body is not going to cooperate with our dreams is sort of liberating.  I no longer have to get my hopes up for something that is near impossible each and every month.  Instead, I can now look forward to other avenues of making our dreams come true.  Cause you know what, they will.  For that I do have hope.


Settling In To Our New Home

Three months ago we moved into our new place.  (Geez, I can’t believe it’s been three months! Only 9 more. gasp!)

This is what it looked like when we moved into all 690 sq. feet of our place.


It kind of looks like a little box doesn’t it? Our whole apartment is pretty much 3 of these boxes connected to one another.  It’s more less than half the size of our home in California, but I kind of find it cozy.  Biggest perk of living in an oversized closet is that cleaning up is a cinch.  I really feel like Susie Homemaker here.  One bathroom, one bedroom, and carpets that can be vacuumed in 5 minutes.  Yea, I think I can handle that.

The worst part about living in an oversized closet?  Trying to make all your stuff fit.

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While we left about half of our stuff in California, we still had to play some Tetris to get all our things to fit in this space.  Don’t look under our bed, couch, or dresser.  Basically stay away from any potential storage space because chances are it is jam packed with junk.  After a few months of cleaning, organizing, and hiding boxes.  We finally made our new apartment our new home.  Here it is!



The best part about our new home is that even though it’s teensy weensy, we’ve been able to open it up to friends and family.  That’s what makes it feel most like our home.  Already we’ve hosted my parents, my bestie, and my sister and her fiance are on their way.  I’m so excited to have more amazing adventures with all you lovelies who have yet to visit!

Getting Demoted on Purpose



This seems to be the motto at my new job.  It’s quite refreshing, and to be honest, slightly challenging.  When we initially moved here, I didn’t intend on working at all.  I thought I’d focus on getting pregnant, and relax.  Turns out getting pregnant is slow going and I got a little bored with all my free time.  Lucky for me, the stars aligned in a way that I was able to get connected with an amazing private school.  I was offered a few positions there and ended up taking one as a teaching assistant for grades 1-3.  That’s right, I said teaching assistant.

After nine years of running my own classroom I demoted myself.  I knew I didn’t want full time work, so I thought this was the perfect opportunity to work with kids, make a little cash, and have enough time to pursue other interests.  Today was my first day on the job, and it’s been very eye opening.  I finally know what it feels like to be support staff.  I never asked my TAs to grade papers or put up bulletin boards (I always thought that was misusing quality time).  For a minute I thought it might feel demeaning to work as an assistant, but I think it will help me gain some perspective on how to best utilize future assistants, as well as learn a few things from some different teaching styles.  Most importantly, I think I’m going to learn to be more kind.

Let me explain.  Our school is one in which kindness and respect are valued in educating children.  In fact, no child is ever scolded or given a time out, no child is made to feel “bad.”  They should be reasoned with and nurtured.  WHOA! mind, blown! No time outs? No benching? How do you discipline students? I think this year is going to be great for me to develop ways in which to foster a disciplined child without squashing the spirit.  I’ll let you know how that goes.

Beauty Buzz: Make Up For Ever, Rouge Artist Intense #40


Isn’t this what we all think we’ll look like after buying a new lipstick?  Well, I got the exact shade that this model is wearing, so I’m gonna be pretty close to looking like this for sure!

I recently went on a bike ride and brought my coral lipstick with me.  (Who does this? “Bike ride, you say? Just a moment, let me grab my lipstick.”) I guess on one of the bumps in the road it must have fallen out of my pocket.  Sadness.  It was a gift from my sister and I hadn’t even used up half of it.  It was a great color, but since it was a matte finish, it tended to get crackly and dry even when I moisturized and exfoliated.  Bye bye, Smashbox Megatint in Mimosa…sniffle.rouge-a-levres-smashbox

I tried to find the exact replacement, cause every girl needs a little coral in her life, but they didn’t have this line at the Sephora nearby.  I brought my girlfriends with me for some help, and even recruited one of the Sephora employees. (These employees are super helpful.  I said I wanted a coral/orange that wasn’t going to cost more than $20 and she had quite a few suggestions for me.)  In then end we steered away from a pink coral to more of an orange coral.  One might just call it “orange”.


I’m wearing it as I write this now, and I feel like I most probably look just like the model above.  So far I like the texture, not too dry and more of a creme rather than matte finish.  I think it’s the perfect color to welcome in the fall season.  At least that’s what my friend said.

Bishops Barbershop Bob

I had been trying to grow my hair out into long luscious locks for a while.  Everyone I know is aware of my struggles here.  I thought this time I could really make it.  I had been dedicated for more than a year.  My pixie cut was long out of sight, and my hair almost touched the tops of my shoulders!  But then I had to be on DHEA for three months, and my hair started thinning, and getting…gross, for lack of a better word.  It was thin and frizzy, and the longer it got, the less luscious it became.  So, I decided to chop it off.  I didn’t want to go pixie in time for a Seattle winter.  (Androgyny doesn’t feed my confidence)  I settled on a really short bob that would allow a good chunk of hair to peek out from under a beanie.

This is the photo I went with:



Pretty basic bob, with a little bit of edge and just the right amount of Frenchy chic.

I received a gift card to Bishops Barbershop and thought that the edgy barbershop might be the perfect place to get this new do.  Bishops is a Portland based barbershop with one location in Seattle.  It is the ultimate hipster hair spot.  And that picture up there is pretty darn hipster.  (Disclaimer: I am not a hipster, just like that hair style).

The hair stylists in this salon make an average nerd like me feel pretty dowdy.  I mean, I don’t have tattoos, or a jagged haircut.  I wear a bra, and I don’t normally go to live shows on a whim.  But, I’ll hand it to them, they were pretty nice and didn’t seem to judge my mainstream appearance.  My stylist in particular was great! super chatty and had a clear vision of how to make this cut work for my face.  She did a fantastic job painting on my color, she did it meticulously so that she wouldn’t get any color on my scalp.  It took her a full hour just to apply the color.  After 3 hours, my hair makeover was complete.  (3 hours seems to be the norm for cut and color, in my experience.  I think this is long, but it seems to always take me that long.)

My final opinion of my new hair:

  • She used the texturizing scissors a bit to frivolously (common mistake made on my hair)
  • The back is a bit uneven (one side is much shorter and layered than the other)
  • I love the length (she really tried to keep it longer for my “heart shaped” face)
  • The color is perfect (Goldwell color usually adds a nice shine)

But really, what did I expect when the images for this barbershop look like this:

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I’ll probably give this shop another chance since the prices aren’t too steep and they use a great quality hair color.  Symmetrical haircuts are overrated anyway.

Stuff Your Face: Delancey

Ever since my friend let me borrow her copy of  A Homemade Life by Molly Wizenberg , I’ve been a follower of her blog: Orangette.  She’s one of those foodies that I trust.  Every recipe I’ve tried from her book has been easy to follow and completely satisfying in the end.  When I moved to Seattle I was beyond excited to try the pizza place she and her husband opened up in Ballard.

Delancey is “fancy pizza”  as I tried to explain to my mom.  My mom laughed at this description, not quite understanding.  I had to tell her about how the pizza is wood fired and the ingredients are fresh and local.  My mom tried to relate, “Oh, I think I’ve seen that in another country once.”  In a world of Pizza Hut, Domino’s and Papa John’s, I think it’s hard for a lot of folks to understand why you’d go on a date to a pizza place.  But, I’m so glad we did.

We got there at opening time, 5:00pm sharp.  We wanted to make sure we got a table and didn’t have to wait.  (Come on a friday evening and you’ll wish you took my advice.  The wait can be up to 2 hours. I learned this the hard way.)  Well, not only did we not have to wait, but we were surrounded by single dads taking their children to dinner.  It was kind of odd how many dads were there celebrating the first day of school with their little ones.  Also weird, the conversations these dads have with their children.  (off topic)

Back to the good stuff, everything we ordered was delicious.  As you can see.

photo copyAs soon as a plate was placed on our table, it was devoured.  We started with a tomato salad and housemade pickles.  Did I ever tell you I love pickles? Well, I do!   Maybe it’s from a childhood of eating pickled jalapeños and kimchi, but anything soaked in vinegar is fine by me.  Hmmm…maybe that’s why when I dress my salads I prefer it without oil, and tons of balsamic.  (whoa! my brain is really drifting today).

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And now for the crowning glory:

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This pizza could not get into my belly fast enough.  The pepperoni and oven roasted tomatoes had a delicious sweetness, and when I sprinkled on the crushed pepper it became the perfect balance of sweet and spicy.  My favorite part of the pizza though, was the crust.  I’m usually one of those people that eats the “good” part of the pizza and leaves all the crust on my plate.  (not a fan of dough.  croissants, baguettes, empanadas…anything doughy I can do without)  That’s why I loved this crust! It was thin, but not too thin.  It was crispy and slightly burnt on the edges, but not too burnt.  It was perfection.  I ate all the crust.  Before you go thinking it’s a weak crust that only non-crust lovers enjoy, just know that S, the most dough loving boy I know, raved about its yumminess as well.

I think it’s safe to say we’re coming back.

Beauty Buzz: Smashbox Always Sharp Eyeliner

I’ve been looking for a new eyeliner that would stay put.  I’ve been through a Lancome liner, a MAC liner, and a few Cliniques.  All of them gave me a great dark line that lasted just about 2 hours.  I’m an eye rubber, so that’s not working for me either.  The Lancome liner I had was the only one I had that was waterproof, and it seemed to hold up the best.  Only problem was, the twisty pencil never stayed sharp enough.  I gotta get the line super thin as my eyelids aren’t all that big. So I did a little research for a sharp waterproof black liner and found two contenders.  1.  Tarte EmphasEYES (I love Tarte cosmetics!) and 2.  This one:image

You like my awesome makeup bag? It’s a great gift from my friend so I can remember my LA roots.

I went with the Smashbox liner simply because it was more product.  I came home and immediately tried it out.  Here’s the lowdown:


  • Self sharpens to a nice point each time you twist it closed
  • glides on smoothly
  • can line your inner rim very easily
  • Nice dark color
  • Very little smudging
  • Long wear


  • If you twist the cap on too tightly the entire pencil tip breaks off wasting a whole lot of liner
  • I have very watery eyes and my lower line still disappears/smears after a few hours
  • The color isn’t quite as intense as other blacks

image1I don’t think I’ve found my go to liner yet.  Maybe next time I’ll try a waterproof MAC liner.